To Sleep, Per Chance to Sleep
So. Tired. Please, bear with me through this post. I can hardly finish a thought muchless a whole sentence. For those of you keeping track, we have been dealing with eczema and teething, and of course this is followed with a lack of night time sleep. The little guy is a whopping four and a half months now and even though he's a younger brother, I still feel like I have no idea what I'm doing.
Just to clarify, I don't expect a breastfed four month old to be sleeping through the night. I'm just confused as to why night wakings aren't, uh, spreading out a bit by now. I'm not sure I'm looking for a solution so much as the knowledge that things will improve at some point. The longest sleep period my little guy can muster these days is about three hours, and that's usually between 7:30 and 10:30 (ie when I'm still awake). From 10:30 until 6:30 or 7 AM the longest sleep period is about 2 hours, but the most common length of sleep is about 1 to 1 and a half hours. It's just killing us! Today I'm in such a dour mood because of the lack of sleep that I find myself acting out nearly as badly as my three year old! My husband is also feeling the strain of no sleep.
Now there are several reasons why a baby might be waking so frequently in the night, and I think we can safely say that our little guy meets all of these reasons! Hungry? Check! (won't just take a paci, must eat) Teething? Check! Needing mama time? Check! Development? Check! (about to roll over, just getting good at scratching his eczema) Illness? Semi-check. He has a cough which worsens at night. He may even be enjoying some diaper discomforts as he's really wetting a lot at night and wears cloth diapers. I tried using a disposable instead but that didn't change his waking patterns. It's almost as if as the night progresses, the sleep periods get shorter and shorter (and mom gets more and more bleary eyed and exhausted during feeding).
Some of you are probably thinking "Why doesn't she just cosleep and get it overwith -- no waking in the night!" Well, for me it's exactly the opposite. If my baby is in the bed I do NOT SLEEP. It's even worse than waking every hour or so. I am usually my moodiest after a night with baby in the bed. Add to that the complication of baby waking and not even wanting to eat or take a paci, just be frustrated at something (teething? gas?). It's so hard to trouble shoot in the middle of the night when you just want to SLEEP!
So I wonder where the limit is. When will I lose my mind? How will I get out of this rut? Have any of you survived something like this and lived to tell about it? Do tell, please!