Mama needs a makeover
Maybe it's just me but inevitably, once a month, I find myself having the doldrums about the way I look. Like the commercials say "your daughter's acne and your mother's wrinkles," I've got it all! Unfortunately, the advertised product would just make my situation worse, due to a fragrance allergy.
As my child and I get older I feel like I get further and further out of touch with how to dress, how to care for my skin, and how to make myself feel better about what I see when I look in the mirror. I think a large part of my frustration stems from the fact that I don't really identify with who I was prior to becoming mama, but I'm not real sure about who I am now. What sort of clothes, shoes, makeup, and hairstyle represent me best? Is it really the flannel pajamas and the ponytail? Because really, I do feel comfortable but I do not feel "appealing." Couple this with a severe guilt trip every time I step into a retail shop (I should be shopping at salvation army!), and the doldrums just get deeper and deeper. OK sure it *IS* that time of the month and my skin looks and feels HORRIBLE, and my body is bloated and out of whack. Does that mean I should just forget about it and move on?
What I really dream about is some lovely person showing up on my doorstep telling me they've been secretly video taping me in my flannel PJs and ponytail and that my friends and family want me to have a makeover. OK sure it's always hard to hear from someone else but I'll take it! When I do shop I don't know what to choose because my body is so different! My self image is so bad that anything I put on is immediately repulsive, only because my body is in it.
Does anyone have any suggestions for how to dig myself out of this hole? I've tried an eyebrow wax and a quick facial but after a failed session of retail therapy this afternoon, I'm still feeling low. Maybe a cut and color? Mani/pedi? What do you do for a pick me up when you're feeling down?